Hello my darling boy , it’s mommy ( but you know that) I’m aching for you so bad . I wish this wasn’t our lives and it was just the worst nightmare and we would wake up and still be together. I miss you everyday and I love you more than I could ever put into words. Mommy bought me and you a lovely special bracelet for your birthday, I can’t believe you would be 32 years old in two day time, but you’ll forever be 5&a half months old , I will never understand why this happened to you and I’d have done anything to make you better,I hope you know that jakey. My heart hurts so badly, I just want to hold you and smell your pure skin and be able to kiss you again, but one thing I am still able to do is tell you I love you and no one can ever take that away from us. I wrote you two lovely poems ( I hope you could read them) I bet you can my clever boy, mommy is going with grandad tomorrow to do your Easter garden and give you your new fluffy Easter chicks, I hope you love then , and a bunny rabbit that lights up so you can see it from heaven shining bright just for you my baby . Have a lovely sleep my darling boy mommy loves you baby , I will see you tomorrow xx night night my precious jakey xx