IT'S NEARLY YOUR BIRTHDAY AND THE ACHE FOR YOU IS REAL NO ONE IN THE WORLD KNOWS HOW DESPERATE I FEEL ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ YOU'RE ALMOST 31 YEARS OLD I ASK MYSELF HOW CAN THAT BE YOU'VE BEEN IN HEAVEN FOR 30 YEARS 6 & A HALF MONTHS INSTEAD OF DOWN HERE WITH ME ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ AS TEARS FALL ON MY PILLOW FROM THE HEARTACHE I FEEL WISHING WITH EVERY OUNCE OF ME THAT THIS WASN'T REAL ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ I CAN STILL SEE YOU CLEARLY WHEN I SHUT MY EYES SO TIGHT MOMMY WISHES EVERYDAY THAT I COULD HAVE MADE IT ALRIGHT ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ I'M SO SORRY I COULDN'T SAVE YOU OR TAKE AWAY ALL YOUR PAIN I USED TO PRAY I COULD MAKE YOU BETTER OVER AND OVER AGAIN ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ THE DAY THAT YOU LEFT ME IS SO VIVID AND CLEAR TOO IT LEFT A HOLE INSIDE OF ME MOMMY WILL NEVER GET OVER LOSING YOU ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ I TALK TO YOU EVERYDAY AND KISS YOUR PICTURE EVERY NIGHT I PLACE MY HEAD ON YOUR PILLOW AND HUG IT OH SO TIGHT ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ AS THE TEARS FALL FROM MY EYES FROM THE BREAK THAT'S IN MY HEART KNOWING WHEN I WAKE IN THE MORNING WE WILL STILL BE SO FAR APART ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER AND CHERISH YOU SO MUCH TOO AND MOMMY WILL CONTINUE TO ACHE UNTIL THE DAY I'M HOLDING YOU ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ SO SLEEP SAFE MY LITTLE BOY WITH NO FEAR OR ANY PAIN AND I PROMISE YOU WITH EVERY BEAT OF MY HEART THAT ONE DAY I’LL HOLD YOU AGAIN MOMMY LOVES YOU ENDLESSLY MY ❤️ DARLING JAKEY ❤️