To my darling boy JAKEY It’s been a difficult day today, I’m sure you’ve seen mommies tears 😪 I just can’t believe your birthday has been on the same day as mothers day 💔 it’s just heartbreaking 💔 but mommy is sending all my love and blowing a million kisses up to heaven { I hope you catch them all} I loves you so so much and I miss you so so much too, why did this terrible thing happen to you ? To us ? You’re all I’ve ever wanted and you were taken away from me in such a cruel way, I hope you know in your precious little heart that mommy would have done anything in the world to save you and make you not suffer 😪 I think of you every single day and dreaming of the life we should have had and it crushes me every day of my life 💔 I hope you love your birthday cards , and thank you for my beautiful Mother’s Day card that Tony helped you get for me x I hope you have had a lovely birthday in heaven with all your friends my little sweetheart ❤️ Love you always and forever my jakey xx ❤️ Night night baby xx ❤️

AS I WAKE IN THE MORNING I CAN FEEL MY MOOD IS SOMBER MOMMY FEELS LIKE I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT YOU ANY LONGER 9999999998 THE ACHE AND LONGING IS GETTING WAY TO STRONG BECAUSE I'M YOUR MOMMY AND TOGETHER WE BELONG 800092808080808080800000 I FEEL LIKE I CAN NOT BREATHE EVEN THOUGH I'M BREATHING MY SOUL IS JUST IN TORMENT WITH ALL THIS SADNESS AND GREIVING I CRY FOR YOU IN SILENCE WITH MY HAND CLUTCHING MY HEART BECAUSE YOU SEE MY DARLING JAKEY WE WERE NEVER MEANT TO BE APART I SIT IN THE GARDEN WITH POPPY JUST GAZING UP AT THE SKY ASKING SO MANY TIMES WHY WHY OH WHY WE SHOULD HAVE BEEN TOGETHER ALL THESE YEARS YOU SEE JUST LIVING SUCH A HAPPY LIFE JUST SAMMY YOU AND ME 900999989 I MISS YOU SO DESPERATELY NOONE TRULY UNDERSTANDS ME AND YOU SHOULD HAVE WALKED THIS LIFE TOGETHER HAND IN HAND 200800 YOU TRULY WERE MY EVERYTHING YOU WERE MOMMYS DREAM COME TRUE BUT NOW MY ARMS ARE EMPTY AND MY HEART IS ACHING MISSING YOU MOMMY LOVES YOU MY PERFECT BOY YOU ARE LOCKED IN MY HEART FOR ETERNITY

To my precious little man jakey. TODAY WAS THE DAY THAT WE LAYED YOU TO REST AS WE CARRIED YOU INTO THE CHURCH I FELT A PAIN WITHIN OUR CHEST WE HELD YOUR TINY COFFIN AND WALKED UP TO YOUR RESTING PLACE WITH SADNESS SO DEEP AND TEARS ON MY FACE I COULDN'T BELIEVE WHAT WAS HAPPENING I STILL STRUGGLE WITH IT TODAY WITH TEARS STILL ON MY FACE AND THE PAIN THAT WILL NOT GO AWAY THE CHURCH WAS FILLED WITH PEOPLE WHO LOVED YOU DEARLY BUT NO-ONE LOVED YOU MORE THAN YOUR HEARTBROKEN MONMY AS THE CURTAINS CLOSED IN FRONT OF YOU AND YOUR COFFIN SLIPPED AWAY I SCREAMED I WANT MY BABY BACK THAT IS ALL THAT I COULD SAY I HAVE NEVER KNOWN A PAIN SO UNBEARABLE THAT RIPPED THROUGH MY SOUL AND HEART AND THAT SAME PAIN IS STILL WITH ME AFTER 32 YEARS OF BEING APART SOMEDAYS I CAN HANDLE IT BETTER BUT THERE ARE DAYS I STRUGGLE ALOT WITH A DREADFUL FEELING IN MY STOMACH THAT FEELS LIKE A KNOT I MISS YOU SO TERRIBLY BUT HOLD YOU CLOSE IN MY HEART AND I LONG FOR THE DAY WE ARE REUNITED AND WILL NO LONGER BE APART BUT FOR NOW MY SWEET BOY I WILL BLOW A KISS AND SAY NIGHT NIGHT AND REMEMBER IN MOMMIES DREAMS IS WHERE I WILL BE HOLDING YOU TIGHT LOTS OF LOVE FROM MOOMY 💔❤️