To my precious little man jakey. TODAY WAS THE DAY THAT WE LAYED YOU TO REST AS WE CARRIED YOU INTO THE CHURCH I FELT A PAIN WITHIN OUR CHEST WE HELD YOUR TINY COFFIN AND WALKED UP TO YOUR RESTING PLACE WITH SADNESS SO DEEP AND TEARS ON MY FACE I COULDN'T BELIEVE WHAT WAS HAPPENING I STILL STRUGGLE WITH IT TODAY WITH TEARS STILL ON MY FACE AND THE PAIN THAT WILL NOT GO AWAY THE CHURCH WAS FILLED WITH PEOPLE WHO LOVED YOU DEARLY BUT NO-ONE LOVED YOU MORE THAN YOUR HEARTBROKEN MONMY AS THE CURTAINS CLOSED IN FRONT OF YOU AND YOUR COFFIN SLIPPED AWAY I SCREAMED I WANT MY BABY BACK THAT IS ALL THAT I COULD SAY I HAVE NEVER KNOWN A PAIN SO UNBEARABLE THAT RIPPED THROUGH MY SOUL AND HEART AND THAT SAME PAIN IS STILL WITH ME AFTER 32 YEARS OF BEING APART SOMEDAYS I CAN HANDLE IT BETTER BUT THERE ARE DAYS I STRUGGLE ALOT WITH A DREADFUL FEELING IN MY STOMACH THAT FEELS LIKE A KNOT I MISS YOU SO TERRIBLY BUT HOLD YOU CLOSE IN MY HEART AND I LONG FOR THE DAY WE ARE REUNITED AND WILL NO LONGER BE APART BUT FOR NOW MY SWEET BOY I WILL BLOW A KISS AND SAY NIGHT NIGHT AND REMEMBER IN MOMMIES DREAMS IS WHERE I WILL BE HOLDING YOU TIGHT LOTS OF LOVE FROM MOOMY 💔❤️

To my beautiful baby boy jakey What is there to say Other than I miss you so much Each and every day The pain I carry inside Is so hard to bare Knowing when I open my eyes You won’t be there I miss you so badly I don’t know what to do When all that I want Is to be there with you It hurts so much To not have you here As I write this to you I shed a heartbreaking tear I know you’re in heaven And no longer unwell But you left me here To live through this hell The night that you died My world fell apart Leaving mommy here With a broken heart You see you were my precious boy That I’d waited for, for so long Just to lose you so quickly Just seems so wrong There are no words To describe how I feel Because even after all these years It still feels unreal I truly hope that you know How much mommy loves you And you’re always here with me In all that I do To have had you as my little boy Was a dream come true With you loving me And me loving you You will always be so special to me And you will live forever in mommies heart And I can promise you one thing That we will never be apart So night night my perfect special boy Mommy will be with you soon Where we will live for eternity Dancing together around the moon Love you always from your mommy 😘💔👼🏻

Mommy loves you so much my precious boy ❤️💔😢 I wish with all my heart that you were still here with me 👼🏻 I miss you every minute of every single day 💔 my heart is broken forever 💔 sleep safe my darling little man ❤️